A situation, History repeating itself?

hmm... been a long time since i blogged.. i think certain things have certainly improved... but still i face the problems... and now i stand face to face with history again... what has happend years ago is happening again... everything is the same... same setup, same situation, just different people involved... i wonder what would the outcome be this time round... will I fail just like the last time round? or will something different happen this time round? regardless I am afraid, so very afraid to lose everything... to lose those that are precious to me... esp her... what should I do? i'm confused... so very confused... lost and empty... may GOD help me.